11/14/08

conflicted and determined

I'm trying. I really am. I know it's in me, somewhere ... my Winter Spirit, my Tele Spirit, my Snow Spirit. HHHhhheeelllllllooooooo?????? It's kinda echo-y in my universe when I call to it.

As you all know, I've been very, very present playing with this kind of warm, Fiery Spirit:

Note the shorts and the short sleeves ... the really faintly lingering summer glow ... the lack of snow and therefore lack of bitterness in the air. Note all that. Note, also, the lack of tele-quads ... the lingering SummerSlimm, and all the brown, green and red DIRT. My MtbSpirit has had a long and ultra-satisfying dry, warm season ... not that it's over, by any means.... But I'm just saying: Winter is on it's merry way, and I am spectacularly NOT prepared!

What I need to do, and what I'm trying to do is get my spirit warmed up and Winterized:

What you can't see is that all that summer glow is GONE (i'm as white and blue as snow under all that fluff and puff)' Tele-quads and TelePower primed and On; Spirit absolutely on FIRE and screaming through the universe as I careen through the WinterBliss. Ahhhh.....

Sighhhhh.... If I could just get my body and mental-space primed for the Freeze and Frost so that I can be excited to be happy in this kind of environment again...


...Then I'd feel a little more connected to my Inner Winter.

Without that connection, I think I feel a little nervous ;-)

It's just ODD not being connected with my Winter Spirit. Tele has been the absolute center of life for so long ... and for it to seem so unreachable and so unfamiliar is just somewhat ... disorienting.

I am, however, conjuring a plan. I have to. There is no other way. Somehow I must lure the PlayMagic that I've been flirting so heavily with on the MTB and in the Dirt to show up in the Inner and Outer Winter space ... Somehow I must get the the warmth of my MtbWorld and the frost of my TeleHeaven to merge and co-exist.

I really admire The Tough, The Gooney, The Ryders: http://gooneyriders.typepad.com/.

I like their UpHillBliss, and their WildAdventureBliss.... Thanks for the inspiration you GooneyBlissfulFreaks....

jj

7 comments:

Tom Purvis said...

I hear you Jeny. Still warm and dry, still riding quite a bit, but the light has changed to the winter light and the days are shorter and shorter. I'm not at all amped about ski this winter--I'm actually hanging on to having the autumn routine. It'll be a minor tragedy to me if/when our dirt gets covered over. -TP

GooneyRiders said...

I feel your pain. The boys went out skiing yesterday, I went riding. I had a great time...but I was torn. Where's the skibliss? I have no doubt it will arrive when it finally starts snowing for real...if it ever does.

Dave Byers said...

I am SO with you. Although snow covers the peaks all around our home, the valley floor is bare. Trails have been muddy for some time now but dirt backroads and exploration on the cross bike have been calling more loudly than chasing elk or waxing skis.

calGone said...

...patience grasshopper...

Itty Bitty Betty said...

Jeny,

I too am "stuck" in the mtb zone and the trail running zone; both grounded in DIRT. However, I KNOW I'll find the tele zone soon, once the snow really starts falling; although in the interim I'm doing my lunges and core exercises so I'm ready.

BTW - I love the new wide version of your blog. I must find out how to do that to my blog. Is it easily discerned from the blogger web page or are there secrets you can share?

TVC15 said...

JJ ... I have absolutely no problem with any of this, and couldn't be more happy that I have lots of vacation days to use up when it's 70 and sunny ...

Ski...wha??? ;) See you Wednesday!

JenyJo said...

tvc: yeah, well, it was SNOWING when I wrote that post ----- you kind of missed that part of last week while you were off makin' crazy in moab...

this weather won't last all season .... but if it does ... then whoopie!

jj